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Not blind, deaf, dumb or stupid

29 Apr

Ex,

You have made it very clear that despite the fact that we are still legally and technically married that as far as you are concerned I am no longer your wife. Even with that being the case you should not make the mistake of thinking that means that I no longer know who you are and that I do not notice things about you. I know FAR more than you realize that I know and I am sure it is far more than you want me to know. Yes, I could give you examples of the things that you don’t realize I know, but there is very little point. You probably think that I am bluffing or exaggerating the extent of my knowledge, but I’m not. I am NOT saying that I know everything. Just that I know more than you realize I do.

The only thing that I will tell you that you may not realize that I know is this — I know that you have broken up with your girlfriend. Let me say that again. I know that YOU have broken up with your girlfriend. What’s more I know that you are (and most likely were before you ended your relationship with your girlfriend) talking to another woman who you will most likely begin sleeping with tonight and if not tonight then probably this weekend. I know that you are jealous of your ex-girlfriends new possible man even though you are preparing to start having sex with the 4th person since all of this started and we are STILL married. Here is what is killing me. You are more broken up about dumping your girlfriend then you are ending our marriage and our family. This girl (and yes I am struggling to no call her all kinds of other colorful names) who you have only been with for 3 or 4 months has been more difficult for you to end your relationship with than a woman who has been with you for close to 16 years, supported and encouraged you in all your decisions and interests and is the mother of your only child. You have had absolutely no problem walking away and not caring about me, but this other girl, walking away from her has been difficult for you.

On top of the knowledge that you are more broken up over dumping your girlfriend than you are destroying our family (and no, that is not an exaggeration) and adding insult to injury is the fact that you seem to think that I am completely unaware that any of this is going on. We may no longer be living together and as far as you are concerned we may no longer be married (even though we are), but that does not mean that I no longer know you better than anyone else in the world and it most certainly doesn’t mean that I don’t know how to read you. You don’t want to tell me what’s going on in your life as frustrating as it is that’s fine, but don’t forget for one minute that I am not blind, deaf, dumb or stupid.